I hate that it ended like this.
I hate that it ended like this. I hate that the solution was so simple. I hate that neither of us could find it. I hate that she lied all the time. I hate that that made trusting and … Continued
The beginning of the end. The final few days of us.
Last Monday, (April 10th) she invited me over to her house after yoga, wanting me to spend the night. 2023-04-10, 12:18 p.m. – E: Depending on how the rest of today goes with work and whatnot, and how you’re feeling later, … Continued
Shame spirals, self loathing, pathological liars and despair. Oh, and still a lot of anger.
By now, there’s more than a few people out there who think I am the epitome of evil and that I’m a monster of the most heinous kind. That they didn’t see me for who I was all along, and … Continued
This new wake up routine is the worst.
As I woke up this morning, I felt my body flood with adrenaline and become activated as my brain did a full inventory of this new reality that is my life. “She’s gone.” I feel panic, disgust, sadness, anger, hurt, … Continued
Lies, lies, lies and more lies. Reactions to lies, and the vilifying of those whom the lies traumatize.
Trying to write about what you feel and what happens inside your body after a devastating rupture with someone you care about is like trying to sort 35 decks of playing cards outside during a tornado. I’m frustrated that this … Continued
It all started with the words “Popcorn for Dinner” on Plenty of Fish.
On August 5th 2019, I met the person who would eventually dismantle who I was as a human being, and who would ultimately cause incomprehensible amounts of emotional and psychological trauma, over and over again during an almost 4 year … Continued
First Contact?
Greetings!! My name is Robin. Most people know me as Robb. I’m a 47 year old married father of 3 and owner of a rescue dog, living in the PNW on Vancouver Island, Canada. I’m in a long term open/poly/ENM … Continued
What does the name “Somatic Serf” mean, anyways?
I picked the name for this blog based on the combination of the words “somatic“, which is “relating to the body, especially as distinct from the mind” and “serf“: meaning “a person held in bondage or slavery” which I feel … Continued