Someone asked me today what I would say to her if I had two minutes to stand in front of her on a deserted sandbar in the middle of the ocean, where neither of us could escape. If we HAD to face each other, and say anything I needed to. If I could say one last thing to her.
It didn’t take me any time to know. It was an easy answer.
“You were the worst of all of them. You were the biggest monster of all of them. More than my Father, more than my sister, more than my mother, more than my ex wife. More than anyone else at any point of my life, you were the most insidious of them all. Because you made a choice to do harm, using your training to gain trust, knowing the impact it would have. You chose to do harm, and did it for your own gratification. From the beginning, all you did was lie, cheat, hurt, manipulate and deceive. You, more than anyone else, were the one who should have known better. You claim to have dedicated your life to helping people, and yet you hurt and lie to those you claim to love. You lie to your parents, you lied to B, and you lied to me all the time.
You’re a hypocrite, a liar, and most of all, you’re a fraud. You use your training to be better AT those things instead of using it to be better THAN those things. You’re supposed to protect from the monsters under the bed. You ARE the monster under the bed.”
She wouldn’t hear any of it though. She’d just demand you said it all in a way that didn’t activate or upset her. :/
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